When I visit the Laryngologist, Speech and Swallow therapist or any medical facility that reminds me of my surgeries and near death experience it triggers me a lot! I get torn with emotions of hurt, anger, and fear. I shake inside. Will I let the fears of my past haunt me? I have to muster the strength to face my daily fears to face the trauma. Healing is an art. It takes time. It takes practice. It takes lots of love.
The specialist reminds me that my muscles in my throat are working overtime than the average person; breathing and swallowing are completely different than the typical person and my brain is working overtime while protecting my paralyzed vocal cords.
Though all the many changes and challenges I have incurred for the past two years yet they are still baffled by so many accomplishments. They are still learning my very rare diagnosis; Bilateral Vocal Cord Paralysis.
One word sums it all up: GOD! He’s the mastermind behind it all.The director, the author and illustrator of my story. He’s chosen me to be the main character in His script.
He’s still working on me…Healing is not a destination; It is a journey…
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